New Me? Old Me? Modern Me?

Very lonely today, with my wonderful darling away to celerate friend's birthday. Really don't know what to do, what to make things of, and how to kill this time.

Time together with my darling is not that long daily, but to me it is very meaningful. You don't see the same girl again and again without losing taste right? But you are wrong!!! I've been seeing my darling day after day, spend all my time waiting for her to end work, spend my time to accompany her, to chat with her, to show her some concern. Which guy will actually do it?

I'm not putting off the big bombs ("fang da pao"), but I've done all that I've and I should've done. I keep on trying my best to make good the words I promised to my darling. Tiring, yes, it is tiring. But the end result is usually the wonderful ones. Just imagine, a farmer plants wheat every summer, tough tiring he did not even complain once, and when spring comes, he can have tons of wheat to sell for money.

I would rather spend my time wisely than to be the old me, sleeping as and when I prefer and like, and sleep as long as I prefer. However, my darling has changes my lifestyle. From a lazy fellow who does not see the big picture to the current new me who sees everyday as a new challenge and to make do with whatever resource I have.

So what one got no money in a relationship? Love is not measurable in financial terms and is not even collaborative with financial terms. Yes, no money is unable to go have a nice and memorable date, like catching a romantic movie or going candlelight dinner with your girlfriend. But remember this, even if you have the money, the girl will leave you for sure too. Reasons? Easy logic.

What everyone, be it a male or female, need time for comfort, time to let out, time to have a shoulder to cry on. Who says being a male cannot cry aloud? Who says only females can go soft on guys while guys cannot? Everyone is the same. Females only need and require more attention than guys, as guys usually likes to do things independently.

I also a guy, but maybe a guy that has long been extinct. I treat with girlfriend with higher respect than one can ever get. I respect my girlfriend to the extend that I let her make the decision, should it big or small. Though my girlfriend is a smoker, but I let her continue instead of stopping her, because you just cannot stop a smoker from smoking in a day's effort. Imagine that you are having the same lifestyle on a daily basis, and someone comes around and tell you that you need to change your lifestyle, you just can't simply change it overnight.

Girls need to be doted on, remember that well. Just like how wedding goes, when the girl gets married, the girl's mum will splash a tub of water away from the door of residence where the girl once resides ("jiao chu qu de nv ren jiu xiang shi po chu qu de shui"). At home, a girl has to do housework, take care of everything, that is the reason why they need to be doted. No parents will bear to see their daughter marry to someone that won't cherish them, remember that as well too.

I've been with my girlfriend for the past 1 year, 1 month and 2 days, and we have never quarrelled once. Why no quarrels you may ask. The answer is pretty simple: why waste effort and time quarrelling on the time that is already so short? I rather use this effort to think of ways to please my darling, since she is always having a hard time in work or at home.

Life is never simple to someone with such packed schedule like me. I got to handle school work, part time work and still I have a girlfriend that I promised to see her on a daily basis. Everyday I got tons of things to complete, and everyday I wake up at 5.30 in the wee morning to board the bus to school, following by a MRT trip to work, and lastly to meet my darling for that few minutes. For that few minutes I have cherished with such care, love and attention that I never once say I'm tired and refused to meet her. Meeting her for that few minutes brings me close to her for even a 0.000001 inch I am contented.

Ok. Time for me to see sayonara...I hope to see you guys again pretty soon. But that will be my next off day. Which is when? I personally do not know. See you guys around!